{Reflections} Patience

"What hard lessons have I learned when I've tried to make things happen on my own? What is my experience of true rest?" Scott Hahn

This reflection that I read a few weeks ago really hit me! Because it is so me! In my driven personality I feel as though my life is going nowhere if I am not achieving and working towards something. I want to force things to happen in MY time. I have learned many hard lessons when I try to make things happen on my own. When I finally slow down and look at what it is I want to do, I realize that I am usually focused on the wrong thing. The end result and that's it. Yes you have to know what you want the end result to be. But, I have found that to be where very little of your focus should be. The focus is on the process of getting to your goal. The day to day challenges, how can I do them better? Let go of the perfect end result, mess up and try again. Let go of perfection and perfection will happen. When I finally refocus and give it completely to God I feel so much more at rest. It's kind of like a HELLO moment "You didn't have control over it anyway, God did, so stop trying so hard!" No matter how hard I tried to make it happen, God had it the whole time! I have had to relearn this over and over again to let go and let God, His timing is perfect!

~Rachel